My mother used to tell me, “… you will know when you have had enough Tad.” She was referring to anything in my life that I might want to change or get rid of. Good or bad I have always known when enough is enough. But I have to admit, looking back at my life sometimes I took her advice and sometimes I held on longer than what may have been useful. But I have always known when I hit my limits on anything.
Change can be difficult because really all I want is for the journey of my life to make sense and feel good. But the truth is, when I change it can hurt. Change can feel really uncomfortable and has made me second guess everything I am doing to get through it. But I am certain, that true change means that I must step into the rooms of uncomfortability in my life and live there until those rooms feel like home.
The best part of this life is that no matter what I do, my life shows me where to go. No matter what my outcomes are my life is always guiding me toward my wellbeing. I just have to know that feeling uncomfortable doesn’t mean I am doing it wrong. It doesn’t mean that I am off track. It means that change is coming as long as I stay steadfast in my thoughts and actions.
I am thankful for all the change in my life over the years. I am thankful that I have been shown a path, that is suitable for me, that always leads me to better feeling places. And I am thankful for all the wonderful people, places and things that have taught me so much and shown me so much. I can’t help but feel intense gratitude for the perspective that I hold. I don’t know it all, but I don’t have to to make my life wonderful.
Do not be afraid of your change. Do not be afraid to feel uncomfortable when you try to change. Remind yourself that changing will not feel like the “you” that you are today, that way about your life that is customary and ordinary for you. Change feels different than what you feel today and that can sometimes feel uncomfortable and scary. But that is how you know you are changing!
I am love. I am joy. I am so very good. And so are each one of you.
(*picture: me at 20 years old and me at 45 years old)
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