Almost two years ago I moved from Chicago to Tempe. The last eighteen months have been some of the most transformative months of my life. When I moved I needed serious emotional healing. I hadn’t fully faced some of the demons in my life. We all have trauma and aspects of ourselves that we don’t like and I am no different. For me, I was the hurt from my relationships, and I felt that I no longer knew who I was anymore. I had taken them all too personally. The result was that I didn’t feel like my self anymore.
I felt invisible to others. I felt uncertain about my future and I couldn’t find the joy in my daily life that had always come so easily for me. So my remedy was to get myself out of my situation, the environment that was not helping my ability to heal, and put myself in a place where I could rise back up and feel my own power again. So I moved two minutes away from my twin brother in Tempe. I knew getting back to my roots, being near my twin, being near unconditional love and having others who authentically care about me would help me. I boy was I correct!
The most wonderful part about any healing process is the feelings of gratitude that wash over you when you reach the other side of sadness or pain. I realized how important all of my traumas were to my life. How the people and situations that I encountered added such value to my becoming who I am today. I love myself more today than I ever have in my life. I couldn’t have done it without the pain. I couldn’t have healed without the lessons that my suffering produced.
I have said it before, but I say with complete certainty today, that nothing bad really happens in our lives. It’s just our judgement upon them that can make us feel so badly about ourselves. I have the choice to see any experience or person as good or bad for me in my life. The fulfillment I receive in my life exists because of what I decide to believe about myself.
I have always chosen to see beauty, to see love, to see kindness, to see understanding in my world. And today is no different. This is the essence of my Happy Bubble. It is the world that I have decided to create each day as I focus on love, joy and understanding. Now when I wake each day, I ask myself “Tad, who do you want to show up as today?” The answers are always the same.
I am love. I am joy. I am so very good. And so are each one of you! Live your truth as you see it. It is ok. Love everyone no matter what! Not because they deserve it (even though we all do), but because you deserve to feel the wonderful feelings of love all day long.
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