It is the pain and difficulty in my life that offers me so much more than just discomfort. The lessons and gifts in each day always come to me in the form of experiences. So I keep my eyes open for the signs that offer me something of value, and I keep my ears clear to hear what my life’s song sounds like in each moment. “Breathe Tad,” I tell myself, breathe deeply, exhale and release.
The value of my life comes in-between each breath but it fills in all the holes of my life with joy. What is my life worth? What is my time worth? What am I worth? Are these the same? Is it my life or me that is the focus of this journey? I think it is the experience. I think that it is the infinite that has come to play. The game that we participate in is what I call my life.
There is so much of my life that I have lived and so much that I haven’t yet. This game could be over sooner than I know or it could last years longer than I expect. What do I want from my life’s experience? I want to feel the me that is me. I want to touch those parts of my spirit that only I can feel and only I can appreciate. I am love. I am joy. I am so very good.