Yesterday was a bit sad because I took my daughter to the airport so she could go back to Pittsburgh for the school year. Our summers always seems quick and fast, but they are always wonderful. I always feel so blessed to have Kiana as my daughter and my life long friend. Each summer we bond more and more and we have the best interactions. When I see or think about her all that floods into my heart is unconditional love.
I have rarely encountered anyone who really experiences unconditional love with the exception of dogs, children and some parents. But most require something from the “lover” or from the “loved” in order to continue to flow love to that person. When the conditions aren’t loving enough, then most just treat others based on what current emotional state they are in or based on what they are currently receiving from their experience. For me, loving is a simple matter of continually cultivating within me the most satisfying feeling that I know, love for the sake of feeling love.
Even though my daughter gives me reason after reason to love her more each day, I often feel like I will burst if I love her any more. I have never loved anyone this deeply or strongly in my entire life. She is a kind of perfection that I am inspired by. We talk often about what we each want in our futures, what she wants to become and what she thinks is important. I can’t wait to see this wonderful lady she is evolving into. Yes I will cry at her wedding, I will cry when she blesses me with grandchildren (if that is her wish), and I will cry tears of joy at every milestone in her life. She may be my biggest fan, but I am definitely hers!
I keep a box in my closet that I have filled with every single drawing, picture, note, card, baby teeth and anything that she made or gave to me since she was born. I have her pictures in this box along with other little memories that came from her. Someday when she gets married, I will give this box to her so that hopefully she can feel the immense love that is always with her in her life as she progresses into her future.
I am love. I am joy. I am good. I am a thankful daddy.