Holy molly, these last couple weeks have been very tumultuous and emotionally turbulent for me. I ride the waves of emotion like a champion surfer, but sometimes I catch those hundred footers that can really crush me if I wipe out!
Today the waves have gotten calm again. Finally a reprieve from the emotional roller coaster that I have been on. Feeling down, feeling apprehensive and feeling frighteningly alone. Yes I feel these too. Usually I ride and wait them out. Today I feel myself coming back into shore safely once again.
Every time I experience this, while the ride is always rough, turbulent and harsh at times, when I come home to shore and my emotions return to center I am almost always filled with a deep sense of appreciation for my life. WOW!
I love my life, my journey and the ride that I get to have. I am always brought home to my safe place of love. It can get lonely riding those big waves but that is what I am here to do. I am here to ride the emotions of my life and to then feel grateful for my very existence.
This all may sound strange to some but this is my life I have come to accept and to count on. I have been burdened with the heaviness of deep emotion my whole life. But I think it is because I have been prepared to handle it. I know I can. I have a deep sense of knowing that I am suppose to feel so deeply so that others can find their way to.
While I don’t have all the answers to life’s questions we may all ask. I do have gratitude for what I know about this life. It is short. It is very precious. But it isn’t all of who we are. It is just a brief bath of love. A pinch of deliciousness and a small handful of wonderful memories of togetherness that is only trumped by our joy that we allow when we let go of trying to make this life more than this.
I am love. I am joy. I am so very very good. And so are each one of you! Thank you for being in this life experience with me. You all are so deeply appreciated.
(Picture: Just me today as I work at my desk)
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